6902 miles

You have heard the common modern love story right? Where the two pairs meet each other online, through an app or comment bar.

I would have never guess it,

but it came to me. 

Never intended to do so, finding someone new was not the real intentions, studying about language and making relations was the goal. 

But i guess there's a bonus to it.

As i was fed up by the common small talk, i boldly ask him to do voice call. 

I prefer to hear one voice.

And in a few weeks, we clicked.

What makes this memorable is we actually talk. Despite a lot of difference in ourself (especially pop-culture and humor wise). It's a very interesting talk. 

I intended the conversation first and then we kinda drove along the line there, going from one place to another. Sharing views of other perspective in the same topics, which is nice.

It's like we we're sitting in a coffeeshop on 7pm evening just talking about life while sharing a plate of cheesecake. ahh i want to have cheesecake. 

I like listening to his story,

his side views,

his different views,
his interest,
his funfact,

his backstory,

his old memories,

his painful story,

his happy moments,

his hometown,

what he likes,

he dislikes.

That's life and that's also what makes us human.

It's not always sunshine and rainbow.

THE MILES...

We try to keep it chill and low key. Not to make status or commit to anything, but for sure in life we need to have a status right? Whether we are them or not, even if we try to deny that. But i guess we do need some sort of approval of "am i yours?" or "am i not?". Because thats what keeps us from hurting each other and keep on caring for each other.

We haven't talk through this, but i think i know and we both know that we belongs to each other. For now. 
or forever. 
or I don't know. 

Let's just not be delusional for now. 

I don't want to repeat the same hole i keep on going. 

I am more matured. I am over it. 

We both also agree that we don't know where this is gonna go, but we're just gonna try to do it and go with the flow. If destiny said be it, then be it. 

I am still trying to get used of this relationship i am involved in. The distance is too much. I can't keep my hands too far from my love ones. I need to hug him when i'm happy and i need to hug him when i'm sad. But i guess this is a test. A patience. Not a simple question with an A or B answer.

I don't know how many people can survive this kind of love in a distance but when they're done with the distance. They're the real winner. 

So in this distance rope comes two things: communication and trust.

Without communication, you will fall and without trust you will have nothing. 

Trust is hard.

I dealt with trust.

But i haven't be done with it because it's hard.
Trust issue is a real thing.

It's miserable to think about it but also i have to try because if i don't, he won't to. So what do we have? Nothing.

I honestly don't know how this work,

and how will this ends in the future,

even though i already have imagine what the future gonna be like... being the delusional self i am. 

But it's good to imagine the future.

And i really hope to see you in my future.