#np 23-25/12 Playlist
For once, i don't want it to be just in a dream.
I don't want it to disappear when i woke up and only remember half of it.
That date,
That day,
That night,
i try to forgot all the reality that comes in my life, the consequences of the action.
the thoughts that been flowing on my mind lately.
I just want it to forgot, even for a bit.
I know i'm just jumping into the same hole.
The same one like years years ago.
But now i'm more prepared.
Even though i stumble.
Even though i ran through a rocks.
I could cry my way up and pull myself back up while smiling.
As the darkness comes by, as if my alter ego has conquer me.
I began to seek for the journey.
It was my first time so i was just doing as i should be, following the lead.
I was always a curious person.
and people say i'm an ambitious person, but also full of adventure.
This is the adventure that i never experience before.
I was hesitant for a bit to let out all of me, but how?
How could i not let it all out me?
It was just like turning the pages,
Something inside of me come out,
A beautiful realization of the beauty in it.
Should it be this addictive?
I'm addicted, something like an addict.
I finally learn something,
A precious knowledge that will not be thought in any books.
An adventure for a lifetime.
A glamorous yet mysterious feeling.
But now i'm truly afraid of myself.
If right now i should be more ambitious about things,
I want to achieve more dreams,
Wins in all goals,
and be more experimental.
I'm afraid i will become too ambitious,
that eventually my alter ego takes control of myself.
Because i know damn well,
i can control into such extent,
i can hold myself back.
But i don't know for how many long.
Because it's this distinctive smell,
distinctive scent that keeps me going.
An addictive scent.
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