Let's talk about our future

 

Let's talk about our future

i said to him

with a soft spoken voice with tears welled up in my eyes. 

We would talk about how we wanted to live in a suburb part of the town.

Away from the crowd but not too far.

But still quiet enough for our cup of tea in the morning.

We want to have enough garage for 4 of our cars.

Our cats.

Maybe even a rabbit if our garden is big enough.

A room for his hobby.

A room for my laptop and easel.

A pool for the kids so they could bring their friends from school to come by and play at our house.

Our house.

That sounds very nice.

A house filled with nothing but comfortable silence

or late night chatting while playing Playstation at the living room.

Talks about our day in the bed.

Or playing nerf with our children.

I cook while you clean.

You drive and i navigate. 

It's like sparks every time i think about it.

It's like fireworks in my chest ready to sprung out the sky,

my feet was pushing me like "let's go let's go, we can make it happen!"

but how...

remember, how i said Australia is the best place to live.

We could take master degree together,

find a job,

find a place to live together,

and once in a while invite our family to come visit us. 

It's like sipping a sweet tea.

You just keep sipping subconsciously without knowing it's already gone.

and then you come back to reality.

The questions that we keep pondering over and over and over.

that we know the answer but we're just too bitter to swallow it.

but until then..

let's talk about our future...

but for tonight

all i want is to pray

for you and me.

3rd January 2021 - 12.30 am