119? Hi, i lost someone.
Hi, can you help me find it?
Hello i lost somebody can you help me find it?
Oh... well i lost someone who i used to call my home.
He used to be my source of happiness,
the sparks after a long hard day of work,
my mood booster to keep me sane,
the light between all the shadows.
He used to be so passionate about knowing me, what i like, and what i do.
He would chase after me so i would never be lost,
He used to love to have me,
Even insisted to always be by his side,
Day & Night,
He is like that lost little puppy who always seek for his owner. Waking the owner with excitement on it face, and Cheer when the owner got home.
Appreciate me when i did a great job,
Love and care for me when i'm in my insecurity,
Being proud of me for being a great woman
When i'm sad, he's sad
When i'm mad, he's sad
But we always work things out because we don't wanna go to bed angry.
He put in the effort.
Can i still call him my home when he makes me sad?
I couldn't even concentrate on my work, my prayer, & my study
Must be thinking about it before i go to bed, after i woke up, driving, on the road, or when i'm just thinking about nothing, day and night
Because my vision are gonna be blurred by my tears anyway
Slowly unmotivated
then my heart sank slowly
And i'm short of breath, because i need to be quiet so people wouldn't know i'm crying
Crying until i fall asleep
And it's been 3 weeks like this
Even my eye bag serum couldn't handle how puffy my eye is
It was like an eating schedule to me
3 times a day
So what happen to us?
And i wonder what happen to him?
When i met him in person it's all good but when it's back online, he stood still
What happen to "your happiness is my priority"?
I would just assume that's life.
Maybe i expect too much
Maybe i ask him too much?
Maybe i demand too much?
Or maybe i was just asking the bare minimum.
The standard.
Offering the least possible amount of yourself that is needed in order to keep the other person interested.
I admit, i am an attention seeker.
I need attention and loving and affection.
I love attention
In person or in social media.
But is it wrong for me to ask for attention and loving to the person i called my home.
I didn't ask it to another person when it's probably easy
but i want my home
So can you help me find my home?
sad
BalasHapus