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 YaAllah forgive me for i have not been able the good muslimah i wanted, pray, and hope to be. But please never doubt me or give up on me ever. I don't know but something about 1 am prayer and du'a that makes me so emotional. So touched and really feel like God speak to me. Sometimes words are hard to say and swallow but without even saying it, i feel like Allah SWT has understand me, listen to me... and i felt the connection. I keep on apologizing apologizing apologizing for what i have done that might not be the best...  keep being grateful and give thanks for everything he did, he reminds, and he see keep on shouting His name to my prayer... It was a spiritual journey

Could i actually be happy? No, the question is... could someone except my parent, can make me happy for the rest of my life? My parents had done all their life. Their job was to keep me safe, sound, and loved. They did it. But could someone replace them? I was foolish, i was stupid... i was in love.