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When you wake up and you just want to sleep again because sleep is more nice than doing activities. When you constantly battling yourself in your head, presuring yourself to stop blaming yourself. Daydreaming seems enjoyable rather than talking to people. When just picking your phone or answering someone's chat is so tiredsome and requires lots and lots of energy. When you don't love the thing your love anymore. When you don't enjoy what you used to enjoy. That sudden rush of memories, self blame and anxiety that you cry in the middle of the street. Constantly waking up feeling so tired even though you already sleep for 8 hours. When everything goes wrong and you feel like you deserve that because you're just a useless individual.  Constantly crying in bed to help you go to sleep. The feeling of wanting to talk about it but then not wanting to talk about it because you feel it's not important and people wouldn't understand it. The denying of the feeling. Maybe i

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.” Last Friday, i just finished watching Hunger Games : T he Ballad Of Songbirds & Snakes, shortly it's about C Snow origin villain story. In some part, i can relate to how and what makes him, HIM. It's the trust, it's the people that we love sometimes can hurt us the most in the most vile way. And in this case, my case, she might not act that vile but she definitely hurt my heart.  It took me 2 weeks and a movie to make me finally opening up about this. No friends, even my best friends that i tell about it. This is probably the one thing that i will keep to myself because i'm afraid of what other people feel. I feel like they will not understand it, i feel they will belittle my feelings and ignore it. Thinking it was just an easy heartbreak, it was nothing, and just throw me to the ground. So rather than me having a 2 times heartbreak from the