"hey babe i'm sorry i couldn't be there for you or respond quickly yesterday. Got a bad stress coming over about the things i told you about. I'm sorry i didn't let you know and it made you feel frustated and overthink. I wish i could pull that away from you. I'll make sure to text you first my whereabout keep me posted of yours also. I love you and i'm sorry"
but instead... he just left me gaming with his buddies.
With no thoughts of asking me whats wrong? or even a glance of why i sound different.
And when i tell him clearly, he say he felt the same thing to me and proceed to not apologize or trying to make me feel better. Not a flower, not a food sent, not an effort to go to me directly or even the simplest "can we call? i'm sorry, i don't wanna make you sad and mad."
all those loving message you sent was it true? i feel like what you say and your action doesn't match true these days. the things that i say to you were just a melody that went pass through your head and then be forgotten the next day.
this is the first heartbreak i get from you.
i feel unloved, i feel lonely by you.
i know you might never want it to happen, but this is my feelings. This is your lover feelings and this is valid. What i'm feeling right now is the reflection of how you treating me now and if i may so its not good right now. i miss the man i like before, can you tell him i miss him?
this is the path that i had chose. Yet right now i'm thinking if this is the best? Can i make it till the end? Or is it too hard for both of us?
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