Why is the voices in my head keeps getting more cruel and mean to me, telling me i should go insane, telling me i should just die.
Never have i think about leaving this world on purpose. I was too afraid to kill myself. I was too afraid of dying in general. But this voice won't stop. It won't stop torturing me day and night. It was too damn painful to hear. It screams to me, in my ear, in my brain that i was a loser that needs to stop everything. That everything i do is wrong, everything i say is not true, because everything that i thought i know... is false. I was clueless, i was unempathic, i was selfish, i was snobby, i was not the person i wish i am. It even kills me to know that.
I really wish all these thoughts would dissapear but it just comes back in and suck. I thought i would never even attempt on thinking about it. But i guess the voices in my head truly wants me to kill myself.
please make it stop.
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