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You smile and laugh to people even with stranger. But you frown and mad when you look back at me. And now your asking me why am i mad and sad at you? Unbelieveable.

  Have you read a sequel book but it has the same ending as the first book?  Because I did.  At first, I really don't want to write it or read it.  But my heart said so, and I will just follow what my heart wants without a care in the world. I thought it's gonna be different. I expect more, I expect a lot, I got too greedy. I thought the two main characters have something, and finally will have a good ending. A happy fairytale.  But I expect a lot, way way a lot. I got excited for no reason. Pray hard for the thing that is out of my hand. Loving someone so hard that it hurts myself over and over again. And when I finish the book. It's the same ending.  I want to throw the book away as possible. Be it on a river, falling from a cliff, crash and burn on a warehouse.  But I can't. Because it's too much.

 0% It drains me. Your energy drains me. Your sadness, and depression drains me. Even when I try my best to be supportive, cheerful, and still happy around you to make you feel better. It drains me. I got none more. Even for me. 0%

Seharusnya pertanyaan yang kau lontarkan bukanlah "Kenapa kamu jadi marah sama aku?" Tapi kamu harusnya yang berpikir, bertanya kepada dirimu sendiri "Kenapa dia jadi marah sama aku? Salahku dimana sampai dia marah seperti ini." Kamu selalu bilang "Wuv u" setiap malam, tetapi akhir-akhir ini aku sama sekali tidak merasakan cinta darimu. Apakah kalimat love you sekarang tidak ada artinya? Apa cuma formalitas saja? Mengapa aku tidak merasa dicintai. Aku capek. Lelah.